jennifer_newell

boys piss me off. ESPECIALLY bradley. im going to tell this whole story. hahahah. here we go. we started talking at performing arts camp last year, we kinda had a lil thing, whatever you wanna call it. i didnt like him so much at first, but he grew on me ;]. anyways...we kinda stopped talking once school started, we ran into each other like once over christmas break though. anyways there was a whollllle bunch of drama at camp this year. we kinda talked like the first couple days and stuff...and he walked me back to the dorm at night and whatever..everything was chill. then like tuesday or something he walked this girl named christina home...and i txted him and was like so whats the deal with you and christina? and he was like were just friends...like me and you. and i was ohhhh woah! since when have we EVER been 'just friends'? yeah thats what i thought...never! but anyways we got into this big long discussion about that which went nowhere..but we still talked and flirted over the next couple days. let me mention that basically my whole family goes to/works at/ runs this camp, hence a small problem with little jennifer hanging out with a guy all the time. anyways, im not going to go into detail about that, but it was pretty freaking lameee. ok so there was some drama with a girl named tina too. let me just say that abby warned me of this kind of thing happening last year, yet again, i fail to listen. anyways, during break one day my cousin justice was like, jenny, you know bradley is going out with tina right? and i was like, no, i didnt know that...i was pretty upset. he was like you should be pissed. you need to talk to him and he has to stop treating you like this. so on the walk across campus to the fine arts building i called abby and told her the whole situation and asked her what i should do. she took it upon herself to call at him and bitch at him for being a jerk. well he didnt answer his phone, but i texted him a few hours earlier and was like so hwats the deal with you and tina? and he was like well why couldnt you have just asked me that in the first place instead of having abby call me all the way from birmingham which woul accomplish nothing. well i explained that i did not tell abby to call him blah blah blah.. he was like whatever ans completley blew me off. whatever. so during rehersal i saw him backstage and i went over and sat down by him and was like, hey, im really orry about what happened earlier with abby and stuff. i didnt tell her to call you, she did that on her own. he basically ignored me and avoided eye contact. typical. later my cousin aminah went up to him and was like, you know, jennifer is realy upset. she hates it when you ignore her. and he was like, i wasnt ignoring her, i had to get ready to go on stage and some other crap i dont believe blah blah blah. anyways, things ended well and we kept talking like alllll the time for a couple weeks. well he brought up some pretty raunchy subjects...and i told abby and she was like jennifer, he just wants to get in your pants. then abby came home from the beach and was like, you need to end whatever yall have going on between yall, cause hes bad for you. so i texted him and stuff and was like i jsut dont think we should keep this going, cause we both already know how its going to end. he was like yeah, and i was like we probally should have enver started liking each other blah blah blah. so that happened and we didnt talk for a few days, so then we we were talking like a week later and somehow we got on the subject of thruthboxes. i ws like that was really mean wht you wrote in mine a while ago. he was like what are you talking about, and i messaged hing what i THOUGHT he wrote. he said it was not him at all, and was outraged that i would think that him of all people i know would write something so hurtful on purpose. (exact words) are you getting the hint that he gets pissed REEEEAL easily? yeh, well he does. so that happened and we kinda fought about it for a few days...and now i havent talked to him in a long time and i know im going to sound like the biggest most clingyest dork ever, but i seriously dont know what to do with myself. i love him so much, no matter what. i know thats bad, because he dosent treat me the way i deserve, but i cant help who i love. and its him, no doubt about it.
tha endddddd.

 this sucks.. . i can't wait to get away from everyone!! i hate school, and my friends annoy me about 90% of time. i wish i had cousins..well, i mean i do, but not ones who live near me. they live all the freaking way in illinois.ha, i think my cousin josh is so hot. thats pretty perverted though.ha. well..school today sucked frreaking balls! why does everyone think they know everything and want to have a say in what i do?! umm, HELLO, what i fuckin say is none of your god damn business!! thesse people serioulsy need to get a grip! first of all, yes, i am talking about you..and second, why the fuck do you give a rats ass about prom when your the main people that when it comes around are going to be like 'omg, prom is so gay, this school is so gay, im not doing anything to help, im not going' everyone knows that those are going to be the exact words that are going to come out of your mouth, so why waste your breath arguing?! IGNORANCE!! thats all it is, and i wish you could see what you look like cause your makeing yourselves out to be fucking dummb shits! im over this. i'm so done with putting up with stupid little drama!

Ohkay basics first. 10^th grade, go to PCHS. Its super gay . I wear contacts, cause im pretty much blind. I'm tall .Well kinda, like 5'9. I used to play volleyball. But not anymore cause the coach is an assholeee.Hah. You'll probally NEVER see me cry. It's just not me. Oh, except if were watching the notebook. I love that freakin movie. I hate when people touch my neck. Do it and i'll go crazy. I have no life as of right now. But that will change soon.I go to school. Come home. Get on the computer. Sleep. Oh speaking of sleep I do that one a lot too.  I use to suckk at stayingg up late.But im better at it now.  I watch mtv a lot but I hate how they always have re.runs.  I have 2 brothers and 2 sisters. Its pretty awesome, so you should definitley be jealous. Hah. It usually takes me forever to get ready and i overpack everywhere i go. Well it dosent take me that long to get ready for school anymore because i dont care about anyone there so i just throw clothes on. I hate getting my hair cut. It used to be really long but i got it cut in like 8th grade and now its gay. I have an amazing best friend. Her name is Abby. I've known her for 11 years and she knows me better than anyone. Last year we went on Spring break together and we snuck out of the condo. :].  It was very fun.  I hate Pepsi and Coke. Those have to be the two nastiest drinks in the world. I think gay guys are cool. I dont really approve or dissaprve of their lifestyles i just sortof let them be who the are. I have cool gay friends :]. I heart mexican food. And Amy Winehouse. I'm listening to that woman right now actually. Once I ran over a boy that lives in my neighborhood with my bike. Highlight of 5th grade.Hah. People think my house is so nice and big, but its nothing special really. I'm a really good speller, it may just not look like it cause i type really fast and dont check for errors. I wanna be a doctor :]. reeeal bad. My digital camera is a freaking piece of shitt. I live in Trussville. Everyone lives there. I break things a lot. I'm extreemlyy irresponsible and immature. But screw it, I just like having a good time. I'm mixed. well depends actually. My dads mixed and so is my mom, so theres me :]. I'm irish black indian and white. And im sure probally a lot of other things i dont know about. My family is HUGEEE. I love Kentucky. Music is kinda awesome. I couldnt' go without it for long. I have a iPod nano and whenever I say that I have one someone tells me It sucks. Guess whatt? I dont careeee.  I like my dinky.little.nano.get over it. I set my alarm for 6 every morning then put it on snooze until like 6:30, or whenever my mom tells me to get my ass outta bed. I have crazy frizzy hair. And i haven't worn it down for like 2 weeks cause 2 reasons. 1) I got it cut and its short and ugly and not how i like it. 2) i think i may have lost my hair straightner.hah. That stinksss. I write on my mirrors a lot, cause i get bored and I have them all over my room. My room almost never gets dirty. I hate doing laundry. Its gaymuchh. I don't wear much makeup. At all. I lovee incense. Im ALWAYS have a candle/incense/plug-in thing in my room. I have been writing on ths thing for like half an hour. And i'm not gonna stop until its long.  Once I wake up i cant ever go back to sleep. I always wake up super early on weekends unless i spend the night somewhere. I never eat Breakfast.  Thats what mrs.Cannons for.Haha. I love text messages. I have a crappy phone and i hate it. Somewhow the front screen got scerwed up and it has scratches all over it cause im clumsy as hell. i want a Sidekick really bad. No matter how crappy people say they are, i think there cool. I have a dog named Juicy and another named Frisky. They're both hella annoying. I read really fast. I suck at math. I have since 2nd grade and I probally always will. I live in the 6th most dangerous city in the country. I wanna go to UAB but theres a couple of problems. I HATE dorms. So im not living in a frickin dorm. And im for sure not living at home. You can forget that. i would get an apartment Downtown...but its downtown. It's crazy. I hate school. I like chicken fingers and Doctor Pepper. I'm obsessed with chick-fil-a. Its the sex.I take showers at night instead of morning. I take like hour long showers. I'm not good at making conversation. AT ALL. I like my teeth but I hate my smile. I have big cheeks like a little chipmunk or something. I have a dimple too. Just one though. My ex-boyfriend used to touch it everytime i smiled and it annoyed the crap out of me. He also used to smell my hair. Lets just say he was a freakshow and hes my ex-boyfriend for a reason.hah. I'm getting a laptop for christmas, and it makes me excited. :]. I hate when people brag about themselves. its so un-flattering and un-classy. It makes me sick. I like target. Like the store. I could buy like everything in that place. I like jewelry. I have 2 credit cards. Used to be 3 but my momma threw away the other one. I love my hottub :] We never get in it anymore cause it needs to be cleaned out. I love havinh my nails and toenails painted but i have painting them myself or having to wait a long time for them to dry. That part definitley sucks. I likeb eing original. And i hate when people go and copy me. Oh well. This is long enough :]

dosen't even begin to describe it. my mother is being the biggest bitch ever. made me fucking get my hair cut! then wont even let me fix it the way i want to. sucks for me, cause im the one who looks messed up.then i got a good ol' 11 our trip to look forward to this week  not. :[ it dosent help that she thinks she knows everything and wants to fucking run my life. gah, i cant wait for college. and then she wont let me transfer schools. parkway is the biggest fucking shithole if ive ever seen one. this weekend has ben one of the worst in a while. dosent help that i think i broke my ipod again.ha. that should be intersting. good thing we only have 2 days of school this week. if it was anymore, i might kill someone.damnit, and im sick too? this couldnt be any worse.well. i have to get started paking my stuff for the grand thanksgiving were gonna have. blows my mind how much of a hypocrite people are. im just ready to be done with this chapter of my life and start a new one. start making some real money and real friends that wont turn on you at any given moment. but i guess thats just life right? i need something to take my mind off things for a while....i have so much stuff i need to do. my moms been pressing me to pick a college/major, but i keep telling her im not going ANYWHERE but jeff state with this half ass parkway education, if you can even call it that. whatever. it'll be her money shes wasting when i fail.then she wants me to drive but wont take me to even get my permit. what the hell is that? ive been begging her to take me for like 4 months. my life sucks. right now i want to be as far away from these people as i possibly can. its weird, cause i never have these moments, like just wanting to escape or angry at the world. im always positive about life. but when you live with the dictator, things can get rough i guess. well im happy about one thing in my life right now. at least i have a freind who i trust and can vent to. we've known each other going on 11 years and she couldnt be a better friend to me.whatever.this is done.